I Can't Breathe

I can't breathe.
I can't think.
I have no air left, no fight.
Nothing seems to keep sane anymore.
The time flies by before I can even think to breathe.
I can't focus on the future with all this clutter in my present.
I can't stop to take a moment to myself.
I can't sleep, all I can focus on is stress.
I can't live, I can't experience.
I can't day dream.
I can't explore all because I can't breathe.
I need to breathe, I need air.
But there is no air to breathe.
I can't breathe.
I can never breathe.
I am not allowed to breathe.
I simply can not breathe.

Finding Someone

Be with someone who loves you with every single beat of his heart. Be with someone who spends every single minute of his time just to wonder what you`re doing out there, thinking about where you are, who you`re with and if you`re doing fine. Be with someone who thinks about you constantly. Be with someone who can help you reach your dreams and who can protect you from your own fears. Be with someone who understands you, loves every part of you, especially your flaws and treats you with respect. Because you deserve to be with someone who can make you happy, really happy. So, never settle for anything less than you deserve just because you can`t wait for what God has planned for you. He loves you so much that He wants you to be with someone who brings out the best in you.

A Change In Weather

As the seasons change, so does our attittudes. We get happier know that it's holiday season and the family  is going to be united again. But others become as icy cold as the weather. At first the cold hitting your skin feel refreshing, happy that something new comes along after a hot summer. Then the cold gets old and all you want is summer to roll around once again. So you hybernate and hope that no one notices your disapperance. People always forget the voiceless, it's not dificult; the one's never heard are never seen. So, basically not even in existance to any other life forms. The cold icy weather becomes unbearable for most and they retreat to warmer weather. A new fresh start. It's what everyone wants, but the cold always seems to follow. While in a warm climate you can still feel the icy breeze slicing your skin and filling it with hate. Hibernation is over and the warmth finally hits your skin. But the daunting icy breeze of  winter will always be just a few short months away. Forever haunting you and you sanity.    

Bucket List: 

21 down & 80 more to go

1. Get Kissed under a Misletoe 
2. Go to paris
3. Kiss a random guy [get name:Stephen]
4. Go skinny dipping 
5. Go to a sweet 16
6. Go to the airport and buy the cheapest ticket I can get to leave that night
7. Dedicate my whole summer to building houses in third world countries
8. Crash a party
9. Crash a wedding
10. Go to New York
11. Get Married
12. Fall in love
13. Get my heart broken
14. Go to all 50 states
15. Get kissed on a Ferries wheel 
16. Get kissed  underwater 
17. Go to China
18. Go sky Diving
19. Go to Tahiti
20. Do a body shot 
21. Swim with sharks 
22. Have a one night stand
23. Fly a plane
24. Sword fight
25. Have a shopping spree
26. Throw a “real” H.S. party
27. Go to a strip club
28. Ride on/Drive a motorcycle
29. Kiss in a heated argument
30. Ride an elephant
31. Go to Italy
32. Go on a cruise
33. Stay at the Hilton 
34. Stop in the middle of the Highway
35. Drive 5mph on the highway w/friends and take up all the lanes
36. Have a Harry Potter Marathon 
37. Have a boy/girl sleepover
38. Go to Vegas
39. Be in a Flash Mob
40. Go on “the worlds largest roller coster”
41. go on “the worlds fastest roller coster”
42. Race on a speedway/NASCAR track
43. Go on the Red Carpet
44. Swim with Dolphins 
45. Have 2 kids
46. Drive around the island
47. Visit all the Hawaiian Islands
48. Go to Canada
49. Go to Japan
50. Go on a cross country road trip!
51. Be in a movie
52. Be a lead role in a play
53. Buy my own house
54. Live in an apartment w/ friends
55. Rent a hotel room with friends
56. Have a Twilight marathon 
57. Buy no one presents on christmas
58. Go on a 5 state trip
59. Own a Timeshare
60. Go to European and Asian Countries
61. Get kissed on New Years Eve [11:59 - 12:01]
62. Go to New York on New Years Eve and watch the ball drop
63. Eat breakfast at Tiffany’s in N.Y.C
64. Go to amsterdam
65. Go on a date to a carnival
66. Walk on burning coal 
67. REMEMBER KUPOPO’S BIRTHDAY!!!!! [FEB.8]
68. Go streaking 
69. “Dine & Dash”
70. REMEMBER AARON KIYOTOKI’S BIRTHDAY MORE THAN KUPONO’S (SEP 8)
71. Complete a “Reck this journal”
72. Ride in a Hummer Limo
73. Go nude tanning
74. Buy thongs with friends
75. Write on playing cards on why I love him
76. Don’t go on tumblr for 2 weeks
77. Get kissed on lockers
78. Go to the Indian color festival
79. Don’t go on Facebook for one week
80. Don’t go on netflix for a week
81. Go to Bora Bora
82. Successfully tie-die a shirt
83. Tell him how I feel [got turned down :(]
84. Go to mall of America
85. Make a couple video
86. Have a paint fight
87. Have a fire extinguisher fight
88. Raise money and give it to someone who really needs it
89. Do Cover the Night 
90. Go to a gay wedding
91. Have a “staycation” 
92. Go to Brazil
93. Go to Cristo in Rio
94. Never give up
95. See the northern lights
96. Make a “free hugs” sign and give them out
97. Have a compliment booth 
98. Witness a miracle
99. Document everything
100. Visit Mexico on Cinco de Mayo 
101. Go to Day of the Dead
102. Eat at Carlo's Bakery